The World in My eyes

As I had myself on an endless mission to change the world, but I guess is the hardest task that ever set upon to me, as I walk and know the people around me... I see the world as rotten as it is, People who can't understand, different Idea, the habbit of not accepting, not wanting to lose, trusting the sweet words but not the truth, as I keep moving on this steps i feel that the world is as rotten as it is. As my Mom said to me, in this world i will meet different type of people, different personality, different ideals and different understanding towards one and other. I learn that there no definite one answer or one understanding. Why is the world in this condition? Why am I entrusted myself to care about others? Why when there different ideals they could not accept the rite one? Why is the world has no sense of justice and rightuos? Why that there no stop to this kind of question? Why people have to go throught pain as well as suffering without any answer in Life? Is it that hard to forgive and Accept? The world as I can see it, the true love is gone... only in their eyes they see love as in a relationship, why can't they see love can be in many other form. The world need to be love by caring one and other, instead of hating one and other. Instead of revenge we should forgive and accept, anger and hate wont bring back time that we lost. Why would the people continue to survive in this kind of world? Why would they love to be in this world? The truth is, I hate this world... but i can't stop myself from loving it. I will still carry out my task to change this world, one step at a time.

Continue Writting~

I can't remember the last time i blog my life or continue writting my diary it was been ages since i blog about my life. Anyways let just start~ I guess to begin with i did't have a good childhood memories, when i was in primary i always got beaten up by the bigger kids and people keep insulting that i'm fat~ but looking back now the smaller kid, I saw myself crying all the time because of that... I guess that what makes us grow stronger rite? Haha but the fact now when i look back~ I'm happy those things happens, the thought me how to be mature and to be strong. Not that bad rite??? I also did't have a happy family to begin with~ when i was in form 1, when the world economical were down, that when my world turn upside down. My mom start arguing with my dad, dad loses job, rich kid become poor. But I'm happy, you know why? I had a great friend with me that time to help me get through~ Christina Tan Wai Ling. My true f riend and my first ex~ =p i guess its my own mistakes that made her dump me hahahaha. Anyway, My life ain't all bad with all the hardship that i been through, It made me stronger, smarter and learn to Love more. I been bless with love, from my family, my friends, and most of all god. Althought i am not christian I believe there is God hahaha. During those hardship I Love many girls~ And to tell the truth I still love them now even when i'm not with them. Loving someone is not bad, it wont just die. I goes on and remains the same. Now with 6ex girlfriends I learn to become stronger with every brake up. I still remember all the good things in Life, But i'm not going to blog it out~ cause good things in LIfe are to keep in Our memories~ not telling it out rite? When i'm old and have grand kids thats when i tell them. You know the best things in life is not the happiest things in Life, its the hardship we been throught and learned~ I learn to Love Unconditionally, I learn to be strong, I learn how to be an adult even when my dad is a bad role model, I learn how to be a family. And I love my family all of them even my dad, mom, sisters, cause they are family, their the only one i have.

A story

What makes a good story? The suspends, the action, the romance, the drama, the story itself,... Sometimes, people dont realize it, but our life is but a long journey of stories. We ourself are the main character and we encounter many other stories as we play a role in other story as well, we play a role in other people life. I guess i come to the point whereby my story becomes a Drama, I though I finally found someone that the right one, but someone I guess we still are not sure ourself what we are really getting ourself into, but today i felt pain my heart, i felt that I might lose someone that really could show me what its feels to love them and to be love back. I live in reality, its a cruel reality indeed, sometimes sadness just sweep rite throught the door without knocking and poof your in a misery status. I know that some decision its made by two, all I could do now is wait.... its there going to be a twist of lemon to the story or continue with the sugar and happy sweetness....

the starting of a relationship

My relationship began on 1st of june 2008, she finally the one girl i could really be with and love her... The only hope that i wish for its that she is herself and not to worried so much, i finally know that love is caring, trust, responsibility, commitment and most of all loving. I love her so much even after 1month i still think of her and she still in my mind and heart. Muax

Kindergarten

I remember when i was in kindergarten, I studied in my mother kindergarten as my mother own one, so i was small little and most of all quite naughty, but i remember even when i was small i always tried to be the hero, there was one time my class in kindergarten there was a big bully who always bully this girl, everyone would keep quite and don't care about that the girl got bully, so i took that opportunity, and kick him~ I kick him in a place i should not kick a guy~ haha than after that the bully when home and told the mother what happen, the bullies mother came to complain to my mother said that i kick the bully. My mother was so angry at me, she cane me at home. She said i not there to find fight and throw my mother rice away, but to study. Although i know what i did was wrong, but i did't regret what i did, i did something that others could not do, i stand up to that bully~ Even though i got cane and most of all scold at by my mother, at the end, the next day of school the girl become close friends with me~ hehe So actually nothing its all bad, but the canning do hurt~ seriously hurt~ its was a rotan~ so imagine~ hahaha

there also one time in kindergarten i pretend i was Mask raider, so i did something stupid i hold two table in the middle and than the table slip and drop and cut abit of my eye, the scar is still there just some won't see it~ hehehe

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